scream

Gawd - that tummy - just below the belly button is like a flap, tire - it just hangs over by an inch or two - why ? I like to see that gone - will it.

Iv restarted on doing 30 mins situps, press ups , squats & leg raises every night - been going 7 days strong …

Diet - its not there - iinfact i reverted to my old poor junk diet for 2 days straight. Yet in my head the focus - the message - get, be rid of the DIET - the junk - get that right & ur tummy hangover will be beat - is so EVER strong.

Right gona go and put a steam potatoe + tuna on for lunch . I can do this - breaky was a cup of tea + 1 slice of bread = 3 hrs ago - i like it.:)

Darn - ive gone up a cup size & hate it. Loosing the 10 lb ive gained - should help this I hope.

MY focus is diet, diet, diet - cleaning up my diet . Eating less, eating right, cutting out the rubbish - can I do it I hope.

This lady died after living on a 500 day diet for last 3 months. Although the corner couldnt attribute the cause of death - some ppl think her body was eating it’s own muscle - including the heart muscle - as to why her heart stop beating all of a suddenly - cardiac arrest. So sad, she wanted respect and did not want to be a ‘fat’ bride on her wedding day, she weighed 17 stone and lost 3 stone in 3 months by sticking to this diet. By all accounts she was still obese at death - what caused it was it the 500 cals a day, for too long - 3 months. So sad.

This struck me - as im am aiming to eat lean for next 14 days and less too - why do v do it to our selves. ?x

I have avoided the scales for 2 months or more maybe - i did not like there result - no weight loss. Today feeling brave or stooopid  - i checked the scales and ive put on the pounds getting back at 140lb, (lowest i was 130lb) = that is 10lb gain! F, Fack, more Fack!

Should i b grateful its not 145lb or more…. should i b grateful that its maintainted at 140 and not balooned higher!

I want these 10lbs gone - but how - to have different results - I must do things differently?

Diet - 80% of weight loss lies in what i eat - I know. At the moment im not a lean eater or an over eater - hence the results! i suppose to look lean, i need to eat less & what i do eat must be leaner . Going to try this for next 14 days…= what do u all think = food diary again live at 1300 calories daily, have 2 helpings of veg a day + 3 fruit…?

Excercise - its good to have stamina. I feel i do enough of it - i have 1 gym session + 1 martial arts session + 1 swim session a week, topped with daily hourly walks 5 days aweek -i feel its enough = isit ? any tips on what to change how?

Thanks for being here buddies

Really do want to get back to 130 lb!

lol - last night - i met a hunk at my cardio class - he was adorable, chatty, fit , blonde & rugged. Needless to say I enjoyed myself - however on the other hand - no1 looks great sweay in their gym gear, no makeup, no accessories, hair tied up… Ive got used to looking like that at fitness classes - easy come, easy go. Tho8 Id share that!

On the weight front - i have not checked the scales for months on end - refuse to see any no to demotivate me…

My freinds are doing a religious fast thing  - so tho8 im not religious I tho8 i’d join them for the week in this quest. If nothing else it is keeping the calories at bay…

x

Anyone got any hayfever remedies - this thing is killing me… my eyes sting, my nose is premantely stuffed, my earis are itch, my chest hurts from splurting up cough every night!

Im ready, ready to trust that i have it in me to push these final 10 stubborn pounds out of me.

I had 1 kiwi, 1 marmite toasted brown bread, 1 tea, 1 tangerine, steamed potatoe & broccoli with tablespoon of cheese so far - oh 1 cookie & shot of sskimmed milk.. - how does that sound

I know i have spent enought time psychoing myself up to do this - months infact - its always at the back of my head . I have got to liken enough good foods & discourage ma self on bad foods. I can do this, i can, i will , i am.x

feel truly sad the world has lost him. Sad he died from a cardiac arrest, sad life, pressures, circus of debts bought him to this. He gave the world, generations of us so much through his music.

Feeling glum and more

Guys, all year I have hovered at 136-140 lbs & i dont know why, yet i do.

I think iv spent much of the time thinking about changing my attitude to food , you know. loving my veg, fruits, lean cuisine more than the choc, cookies and chips, pizzas, burgers.

I think i have done it, its not perfectt, im not crazy about fruit & veg. But boy i will tell u I pop a few fruit & veg portions a day, OUT OF choice not guilt. I naturally starting to eat less junk (out of guilt not choice) - my mindset has become like 1/2 , defo 3 cookies everyother day is plenty - no more. At a wedding this wknd i THINK i managed to pace myself at the eating, with the sweets I had a portion - the old me would have had 3. I did not have to go through a big mental debate, eat more, eat less etc - i just picked one of the plate & was not strongly tempted to eat another. It is a big applause moment for me. Also have managed this during a wk of lot of personal hassle going on - relationship wise - normally in these cases I would i have ate a lot of food, i didnt.

This does not mean i have not had blips - 2 wks ago i bo8 this brand of biscuits that really attract my sweet tooth - 10 in a pack - i ate the lot in the day. That was the really cheat item i bo8 on my shooping list & it is true - dont buy it, u wont eat it crap. I have been pretty good with my shopping list - packed with fruit, veg, diet coke, limited - very limited biscuits, yogurt - no fat, .

I had a difficult month of excercise - did not want to go , so i made myself go - fo8 with myself. Through out the year i HAVE managed on average to keep up 3/4 sessions of excecise a week - happy with that. I do believe i HAVE gained muscle , as i can lift more  = ,mayb contributed to lack of lb loss.

I suppose where i am now - im ready to attack, beat the diet again. Wieght loss is 95% diet & it is more crucial when u are near u goal - i know that.

I guess starting food diary again - cutting down fat , increasing the lean cuisine - eating 1-3 slices a toast most  aday focus.. that kind of stuff - to shift the pounds the healthy way. Feeling positive about this.

thanks buddies - never knew i would become so dependent on this network. x

I v been thinking about this it sucks - food should not require so much tho8. I want some chocalate … uuum i should settle for an apple…uumm… a little chocalate….uuum a lot of apple…

I can do this - which one…

Eat a choc - not feel guilty

Eat an apple & think of the body i want..

this is crazy it sucks…