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For the last 2 days - admittedly, I have ate variety - lots of it = always good. In that there was some junk - i ate too. I didnt bring it into the house my m8 did - with some treats. Late last night I decided to take the control back - i am not that person anymore - who scoffs whatever, anything. I decided - i will eat well & plenty = i will not starve . If i starve its when u reach for the junk. I am back on track this morning. A buddy said to me perhaps reason why u eat junk at night is because u dont eat enough during the day = i think there on to something there. Because I used to think - hey I eat moderately during the day, but loose it at night = where its cos ur still hungry. Ever heard of the saying eat like a prince at breaky, a king at lunch and a pauper at night = cleary i got that wrong.

Well buddies Iv started breaky, mid breaky break  =  of with  1 glass of water, 1 cup of fennel tea, I wholewheat toast brushed with marmite & 1 reasonable bannnan, 1 small pot of yogurt = comes to total of 330 calories. Okay im happy with that, dont like any meal to be higher than 3-500 calories. Now I see how the king’s lunch goes!

Ive got the control back, i knw whats good for me and whats not, i can eat portion control at eat all u can dinners , i dont shop much 3% if that junk when i do the food shop. I cut back on beverages for a long time now. I m ready for being in charge  of what goes in to my mouth = I am what I eat!

I’m feeling it - finally - finally - without thinking to hard, agonizing whether I should or should eat another slice. Yesterday I ate 2 slices of supermarket pizza & left the rest for others to took into. Dont get me wrong there was a small urge to eat more but a larger urge in my brain said 2’s plenty hun its about 450 calories. Its plenty. So i left it at that, had a regular glass of water & set on my way for 1 hour daily walk. Came back & half an hour later i had a slice of whole meal toast.

Guess, what I am saying is that I have finally got it through my thick skull - how to eat in proportion than over eat = without thinking about it. U kno , u eat dont think feel satisfied or more and stop. Now for last few wks I am seeing that i eat normal portion & stop = without thinking to hard about it- YEEEEAAAAAAHHHHHhhhh.

Oh how long have  I battled to get my behaviour in check - because I know ultimately that is what will keep my weight loss down / maintained.

I AM now ready to challenge 6 of the last 10 pounds - by eating right. ITS really about what u eat.

Yes excercise comes in to it - i manage 3 sessions a week & 5 daily 1 hour walks. I see this as getting toned - than floppy - & can see the change too. This I do without fail - weather rough or bright - busy or not.

Guess just please am at some point right & not feeling the head battle as much - of what how much I should or should eat.

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