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I feel so beat against these last ten pounds… I ve been stuck here for months,, .. ive got a good exercise routine going on.. last wk to challenge myself I did a swim for charity , swam 15oo mtrs in an hour - it was ace. Still back to reality I feel beat by these last 10 pounds, ..I find I loose a few pounds, I gain them back - periods.. i loose. I need a firm disciplined plan - I DO . Any advice?..  You kno Ive got a good routine going on excercise wise 3/4 times a week without fail. Im eating my 5 veg and fruit a day without fail. Im also eating my share of fat 2-400 a day. I KNOW, i know its the last bit sabotaging my efforts. I just cant seem to curb the habit of cuting the junk to a few hunderd… I supose after 2 cookies through the day, i feel like another one later.  Or scenario 2,  no cookies throught the day then I feel like having a 200 cal choc bar later. Or no cookies or choc thru the day I feel like having a 300 piece cake somepoint through the day. ITS THE sweet tooth, I dont feel its excessive… i.e. I ate throu one pastry over 3 days, bit by bit. I do find i’m managaing to eat part of choc, leave it and eat the rest a few hours laters. This is fab , i could do this 5 mths ago if it makes sense, I would have wanted to eat it all at onece. However inspite of this little behaviour changes it is not enough to make a difference to beat loosing, get rid of the last ten pounds.

I need a plan, I need a pla…

This morn I had a mug of tea, one biscuit , 1 whole meal toast lightly buttered . Writing this just so I know. I thought to myself aftr breaky, I should live on fruit / veg through the day and have a light meal in the evening .. and keel this kind of eating ‘DIET’ up for next couple of weeks to shake the pounds of…. the other side of my brian says - that is a crash diet darling, you know better than to get in to such nonsense vs the other side saying but i dont know how else to shake it of. Need to shake of these last 10 pounds - im dog tired, sick of em, sick, sick , sick! of them.

help.

Will I ever see 128, 126 for good measure. BOY I hope so. I kno, I know being slim is not the answer to my problems, but boy weight at my ideal goal sure makes me feel better… more confident… more sexier… more me… the me I imagine… is that the me ingrained in my by magazines, tv, celebs… probably… but cutting that bull shite out … its true - toned, slim is a healthier you, what u eat release chemicals in ur brain - happy and sad ones. I want one , this one true area in my life, in my control, to be better, improved for good.

You kno like u get in to the habit of having a coffee at breakfast, I want such habit s to be formed…. truth be known I have a belly pooch - which ticks me off…. my excercise and eating 5 fruit / veg a day habits are formed & boy im proud of them…

The downfall - it all comes back to junk - flipping junk - flipping junk - I HATE It!!! i’ve managed to cut down the fried food to a minimal - like once a wk… its cakes, buscuits, chocs - thats the problem. I giving myself the permission to let go of these foods largly, like I let go of fruit and veg (easily), so many days I could go with out fruit and veg without a second tho8 !!! I want to be like that with Junk - how do I do that !!! ITs the hard way isnt it, no other weigh around it?

With fruit & veg - i set myself a target to eat a total of 5, whether I met or overate on calories now .Im setting myself a target of getting junk calories under 200 aday — at moment I can on bad days eat between 3-8oo calories. Like with fruit & veg I hated eating, 1 after the other… Im going to have to be cruel to myself to be kind… treating myself with iron discipline to cut back down , let go of junk to 1-200 calories aday. I HAVE to do this… I think I will allow myself that junk split ova 2 times a day. I have to focus on this habit break it down, build it up. Until Im at a healthy stage with it like i AM currently with fruit and veg.

I must not buy any chunk that is larger than 250 calories in wieght - that means no cake packs for the family ( as you knom you end up eating most of them urself)

Look for alternatives - i.e. other day u were hungry and fruit just was not satisfying ur tongue, so u tho8 of calorie laden sandwich 4rm shop - u knew it had 450 calorie, so instead u went for - 105 calorie vanilla yogurt. nOW  that yog was tasty and u didnt have guilts of junk.

You must instill in urself iron fist discipline to let junk food go down the bin.. , get some consistent results for 7 days… then review . YOU MADAM can do this - YOU CAN. sTART With today… you kno u have a meal with m8s on sun - so will be junk… plan for it… have no junk today, fri, sat = means including sun’s allowance u can have upto 800 cals of junk. So guilt free eating junk on sun, cos u’v saved thu, fri, sat junk allowance for it. Yes that sounds like a plan - not execute that plan - GO GIRL - GO GIRL - GO GIRL!!!!!

Today… Ive tho8 abt this all day kind of…. What u say..?  Should I or shouldnt I get in touch with old work mates & freinds… once who are still on my address book but for a few years now have not contacted each other…

Background, Im doing a fundraising swim for charity - cancer care organisation. Yes , my contacts & days to carry out the fundraising are limited…? Why well  Iv only bucked up the courage for the swim at the last minutes, the swim is in a  couple of wks .. First I tho8 lets just pay my fee & do the swim… then I tho8 why not, raise some money, do some good for a change, for others…?

Then I tho8 hell whoes gona wana sponsor me…? Asking around, ppl said just get in touch with everyone you’ve known, once knew. Well I did that, and boy did I ponder about getting in touch with old ex mates, work colleagues. Ppl whoes emails I have but have not been in touch with for years and years? Well I sent the mail…. its cheeky no hi & by for years & out of the blue there is a mail asking for donations?  While Id like to know how they are doing, I dont think I can personally handle anwsering question… you know it feels unconfortable facing up to not being someone succesful. Ive done it now.

Dont think I want to check my email for a while?

Help me be brave buddies please.x

I feel ready , really ready to commit to healthty eating.

Healthy eating comes in to parts… 1. eating from all major food groups esp food & veg 2. cutting down fat eating to 20% of total eating…

Ive managed PART 1 - eating all types of food, to the point now I CRAVE idea of eating some fruit & veg. Im very proud of that point. Like right now I feel like having some melon, cucumber. Sure this craving is not as great as wanting to eat chocolate, but its there, it exists like a Hole in the head. Im very happy to have this feeling… in the past I have done 1100 cal a day food plan, stuck to it.. but my fruit & veg intake was as little as 10% of total calories for day. I found it difficult. Right now its upped to 6-7 helpings of fruit and veg - this is awesome for me… why, cos although I have to conciously remind myself to eat them, I dont detest or I enjoy what I eat.

WHat now… well I work out 3-4 times a wk = again that is awesome, u kno. A few years ago I never would have done this, now I want it to be part of my life for eva = why I understand, appreciate it without it I will never look, or acheive the toneed look. I can be skinny but look saggy, what ever my body shape is I want that leaness - cos it make me feel better in side, mentally.

Right now - Im excercising , eating healthy stuff. What is not happening… ive still got belly pooch to loose, flabby arms to loose = I want an inch to reduce of them, they are hiding my good work.

I feel ready to commit , commit to what. Commit to fat loss.

What does that mean I ask myself. Well honey it means.. planning on how ur going to get through the bday party u have to attend this wknd. Either plan a permission day, I can eat what I want. Accept it. Its one day, okay, temptations will prove too much. I think this is the practical realistic option, other wise I will be feeling lousy. I accept I will overeat on this day.

Okay now onto the rest of the days - I feel I am strong enough to limit food fat -like junk eating down to 100-200 calories aday. It has to be this If I am to loose any of the flab. The remaining 11-1200 calories must consist of fruit & veg, carbs, protein. I have got to focus on eating well, good stuff.

I aim to do this, I feel without thinking the fruit & veg eating will kick in. Its the junk , cutting it down making that a behaviour I need to focus & the rest will fall into place. (fingers crossed).

Thanks buddies, Im glad u guys exist, this site exist. its good to ramble somewhere.

You - u last 10 pounds I want to watch out - u are going buddies - forevea - get lost!!

Muscle - u will get a chance to shine!